I don't like moping!
But yesterday, I had had two letters which terribly unsettled me. One from a past "revolution"ary and another from a present one.
The new-revolutionary and I used to be poets together. He used to rescue me from the Basiji fanatics who smelled "atheism" and disbelief in supremacy of any leader in my work and save my ass by turning and twisting the meaning of my work.
So yesterday, he pondered on the irony of life in Iran:[I translate]
"It's a bizarre story! The number of people killed in street protests is perhaps the same as those who got killed in the plane crash, travelers who were perhaps taking a vacation from the post-election cacophony. It means that in our country, death is distributed proportionally and fairly among all. No matter whose side you are on, you die in torture chambers or vacation air planes [...] When you live in a part of this world where [unexpected] death is a daily affair, morbidness becomes your daily dish. This is the tale of people who live in this part of the Middle East; every day tens of people are killed in blind and insensitive bombings in Afghanistan and Iraq. and in our own country [Iran] every now and again a young body that is smashed by a hard object turns up, and the TV is incessantly broadcasting "confessions" which are admission to charges so grave, encompassing all crimes against humanity [tongue in cheek]!! that their intensity does not even fit the [small] profile of the confessor, but they are enough to put back to sleep the half slumbering conscience of our ordinary people, seeding a little doubt in their trembling hearts: 'what if there is truth to these confessions?' ... "
The other irony is that the catastrophic air planes were Russian, one was even operated by a Russian crew. When they Russians don't give us proper aerial fleet, how can we trust them give us proper nuclear technology-he has asked me often in the past.
He sounded depressed and frustrated with all this post-election fiasco:
"Perhaps something significant is taking place, but the battle field is disastrously clouded. Today, both sides of the battle are extremely radicalized and unfortunately, there is little hope for reconciliation. Neither that AhmaGHinejad [Ahmagh means fool] has any intention of backing off nor will he stop at anything; nor the other group who has become cognizant of their power which has frightened the government. The government is afraid and is internally inconsistent and hesitant, and the average citizen is empowered and has become stubbornly demanding, but it is not clear for what objective and how far. [...] People's demands are exceeding what Mousavi and Karoubi had first promised to deliver.
What is certain is that this fight will not end soon, although I doubt it will come to any conclusion unless the poor join in. The poor are mostly Ahmadinejad supporters, although they don't know that the responsibility of their poverty falls on the shoulders of these people themselves [i.e. the IRI rulers]. On the other hand, the corruptions of Ahmadinejad's era are not the invention of his administration. The corruption was widespread during Hashemi and Khatami too. Now, only the players have changed. The script is exactly the same as it was before."
maybe Coldplay says it better: "just because I'm losing, doesn't mean I'm lost ..."